Tired of not being who I want to be.

If I don't know you, I probably wont add you.

No, I don't smoke. I just happen to love Bob Marley.

So this is me. I'm a sixteen year old music lovin, soul hoppin, down to earth beauty that lives life to the fullest and how she wants to. I love God, but I'm "loosing my religion". I like to explore my options, though, in the end I'm sure I'll turn right back to God. Why am I waisting my time? You ask? Because I like setting myself up for failure. I want to be a teenager and experience life through my window. I'll be done in a couple of years im sure and look back on this and think, "Man, we were crazy back in the day!"

I like all kinds of music, to tell you the truth, and I'm not affraid to admit to the bands/singers that I like. I like soul, r&b, hip hop, rap, country, rock, rock n' roll, oldies, 70's, christian, pop, metal, reggae, and funk. Yeah, I like Brittany Spears. So what? I like a whole lotta bands and singers, so I wont name all of them.

I don't go to church, so quit inviting me to your cult. Quit preaching the word to me, because I know it. I know it all. I read my bible, so why don't you shut up for a minute and go read yours? I pray, too. He listens, I know He does. Granted, I don't listen to Him, but he certainly listens to me. This might not be what most of you want to hear, and if it's not, then don't read this entry. Comment if you want, but it's not going to change me right now. There are too many backstabbing people in this industry, I know you're not supposed to look at the people surrounding you in the church, but it helps when you're fellowshipping to be able to tell someone something and count on them not to repeat it in their small group next week. Bitches.

I don't care for liars. I lie myself. Get real. The world is full of hypocrites and liars. I've fessed up and coped with reality, you could too.

I like starbucks, and reading what I want to read. I like sitting with Josh, Jill, and Brittany and talking about random things that have nothing to do with art, politics, school, or church. It's my escape.

Anybody wanna be my friend?

I don't bite.

I'm not a hata I just crush a lot.

Comment to be added.

Interstate Love Song.

Please, don't let me forget the name.

I'm going to DL it later.

Uh huh.

Mindsay is being mean to me. It wont let me edit my posts.

So, I'm just making another one.

BTW The All American Reject's new Album is in stores. TODAY.

I'm going to buy it after din din with the fam.

Don't you wish you were me, bitches.

No, probably not.

Much Love.

OH and another song to not forget.

Take me.

Papa Roach.

Much love,

Julie

Suggested tag" "dragostea din tei" <---wtf is that?

I worked today from 6-6. I work tomorrow from 6-6. I work Thursday from 6-6. Fuck me.

I bought the AAR cd today. It's good. I <3 them.

Josh, Brittany, Michael, Jill and I went to starbucks after I went shopping (actually I met them there), and then we rented Out Cold. That's a pretty effing hilarious movie, right there. Yep.

I bought these really cute shoes today, although when my friends saw them, they told me they were the ugliest fucking shoes they'd ever seen. I was crushed. I'll post a pic of them on here, if I can figure out how.

Michael drove his S2000. Holy tards. It's soooooooo pretttty :)

Ok, so I went to starbucks tonight. They finally had the citrus juice stuff there. It made me happy. So, Josh kept ragging on me, but what's new? It's ok though, I rag on him too. It just seemed weird tonight for some reason? I don't know. Michael showed us this card trick, and Brittany talked about being naked (like usual). Then Jill's friend Amanda was with us, and she was hungry so we went to Steak n' Shake, but it was packed, so we went to ihop and saw mr. stans there. It was...odd. So, then Brittany and I went home and she was like whats wrong with you? And I was like nothin. And she was like Julie that is some shit. So I told her that it was just Josh. But really, I'm dreading the day that Aften comes home. It's bye bye Julie after that. woo. hoo. hoo.

I really wish I didn't have to work tomorrow. I'd rather sleep in comfortably, through all the storms..:( *wishes and hopes*.

Yeah, well, it's storming, and I'm tired. loves.

Suggested tags: "bye bye birdie" "bye bye willow"...what the fuck.

I love my All American Rejects cd. Yep.

Uhm. Oh my gosh.. No starbucks tonight? what the hell?

I GET TO SLEEP IN TOMORROW. You have no idea how happy this makes me. :D

Love me, hate me, but never desert me. <3

Edit: BEN HARPER IS COMING TO NASHVILLE. omg. I want to go.

Suggested tags: "love of god" "love god"....WHAT? I didn't even mention god in this blog.

Today, I felt really sick. My mom said there was a virus thing going around. This is the most I've been sick since I was eight. So, I layed around the house all day which sucked because today was totally sunny out instead of totally RAINY like it was supposed to be. I was bummed. I still am. So, I watched the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I love that movie. Sweetest movie I've seen in a while. I'll make my mom go buy it. I'd rather not spend my money on that. I have to buy clothes instead. Anyway, it was good. If you haven't seen it, rent it, or catch it on HBO or Cinnemax or something. It's actually on HBO right now or HBO 2 or something like that. ONE OF THOSE DAMN MOVIE CHANNELS.

Leigh came over tonight. We watched out cold. I've seen that movie three times. I love it. I'll buy it too. I think. Wait. I'll have mom buy it. Ha. I love you Mommy :).

Mom made me dinner tonight, too. I felt loved :).

Brittany's in SC til Sunday. Aften comes home sunday. I'll call them to hang out with us later in the week. Because, I have to work at a wedding set up and a wedding during the week, so I'll just have to see how that goes. It shall be exciting!

Mmm. I'm really tired, y'all. Update later? I think so.

LEAVE ME SOME love. please.

Suggested tags that I didn't suggest: "buy my stuff" "buy me" "best buy" buy and "stuff to buy"

Uhm. Still sick. YESS. Brittany text me, I called her back, she want's to come home. I told her to. She's still coming home tomorrow.

I want it to rain and storm. PLEASE.

I really want to go shopping, but I'm just not up for it. :( :( :( and Samantha said we could take her car, but still, I'm just not up for it :(

Brittany's upset. I LOVE YOU BRITTANY :)

uhm. yeah. bye

Mkay. So I have like eight pictues that I want to post on here, but for some reason, I JUST DON'T GET IT! :( I swear I'm doing it right! If you have photobucket, don't you just copy the "Tag" and paste it in the body? I thought you did? Helpppp!

Edit: OK I KNOW you're supposed to put the tag in here. I even read the Question Mark explination of a Tag! SO. Now what do I do?

Hehe this is Enver cause Julie doesn't know how to post pictures :-P.

Green tube top!

PINK poka dots

LOOK! It's reversable!! Pink tube top

 
Pink poka dots!

YELLOW Purse

Inside of YELLOW Purse

OLD NAVY SHOES!!! Guess how much they were!

JUST GUESS!!!!!

ok ok $1.97! Heck YES!

You better like it Julie, cause i told you I could do it. <------Yes thank you I love it! :)

I'm in a bad mood.

James is funny, though.

Enver. I just want to be mad for a while. sorry.

Have a nice day. I'll post pics of my shirts I got today..IN A MINUTE.

EDIT: I'm feeling 110% better. Now hopefully this picture business will work!!

 
My Fender Shirt. Yes. Love guitars! And guys that play them ;)

Blue tye-dye

Oneill. SEE. :D

Hmm. Ok well I apologized to Brittany, now all I have to do is apologize to my sister, but we're having a family meeting, so I'll apologize to her then. Or, maybe try to make up before so our parents wont take as long. I hate family meetings! GRR! I bet they'll bring up surf camp while we're all sitting there. ..

I tried going to the pool today, and I get down there lay out and it's really hot, so I decide to get in the pool, and a few minutes later, it starts storming. This better be a good storm, or I'm going to be reallllly mad.

(not really)

I can't go shopping anymore, because I have to pay $340.00 for surf camp. Yes, Julie is going to surf camp the week of August 1-7, 2005. WISH ME LUCK! AND PRAY I DON'T GET EATEN BY A SHARK :-O

I don't think I get to go anywhere tonight either because of this dumb family meeting. Haha I told Brittany and she was like oh my family doesn't have family meetings, we just yell at each other. hahaha.

Anyway, theres not much to say, but I did get this shirt and these shoes a few days ago, just didn't post the pics cause I didn't know how, so here!

Well...actually I lied, I'll have to post the pics later, cause they're upstairs on my pc. Too bad :p lol

Ok. My dad said that he would feel so bad if something happened to me in Cocoa Beach, FL. while I was surfing and told me I couldn't go. It made me sad, so I went shopping after our Family meeting and bought a new swim suit top at Kohls... they didn't have the bottoms. :(  So I'm going to the other Kohls and see if they have the bottoms there!

Walmart is gay. All the sell are the edited cd's. STUPID STUPID WALMART. >:-o

Yeahh...

EDIT: Here's the top I got!

Blue Dots! YES!!

So my display pic is back by popular demand. Sorry. Didn't know I looked so ugly in my other ones?!?!? Losers. Nah, I kinda like this one too. I'm showing that I'm not a doormatt and FUCK YOU! My dad told me last night that I need to quit being a doormatt. I was like mmkay??? SO HOWS THAT FOR NOT BEING A DOORMATT DADDY?!??!?!?!?!?!? Yeap.

Suggested Tags I didn't suggest: "back yard fuck", "Back Yard Screw", and "Back Yard"  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Enough said. :p

I went shopping..again today. I would post pics on here but no one cares.

I AM POSTING THIS THOUGH!

HECK YES! Laguna Beach Season 1! Plus I got a Free $5 gift card from Target!

WALMART. BEAT THAT. HA! ...bitches...

Pictures. Again. I know you guys don't care. I really can tell by the way you don't comment on the things I buy, but I am proud of the deals I get, so, I share them with the world :)

 
Here's my new shirt :)

And my Papa Roach CD!

And a random one of me!

And one of my cat! Oreo!

So, basically my day consisted of sleeping/swimming and laying out/shopping/starbucks. Yep. I love my life.

Jennifer is sitting here with me and we are eating Blueberry Muffins. Mini blueberry muffins. Yes. I said blueberry and mini.

I got the Hawthorne Heights CD w/ Bonus DVD tonight. Yes. Shawn. You've rubbed off on me ♥

I will post a picture on here later. Just for you. :)

I went out and came home and thats it.

Edit:

 
Hawthorne Heights :)

This is the Dog I want!

AWWWWWWW!

Ok so, JAMES and I are talking and JAMES said I should update.

So, I am. Ok, JAMES?

I went shopping today. Not too much fun. Leigh got a few things, but I didn't cause I don't have a job..or money. YES.

So, I came home and ate dinner by myself. And, I was going to tic toc, but I really don't need it. I'm trying to fit into a 6 for Jessica's wedding. Which, wont take long, but the little things like ice cream add up. Although, I am going to starbucks tonight. I'll get water. It's better for you.

So, I'm talking to James and Ben right now. Yep. Only cool people on.

later.

I want

That dog.

My daddy says ok :)

ok so James is the greatest ever.

♥

Yep.

Ok. When I get my miniature pincher what should I name HER. Yes her, I don't need anymore men in my life. THANKSVERYMUCH!

I watched coach carter last night. It was great...what I got of it. We tend to talk too much and get carried away.

Josh picked me up...literally. He was trying to pop my back. I screamed. It worked he says, I didn't feel it.

I think we're starting L.B. Season 1 tonight. LOL. we're losers.

I can't wait til tomorrow night! Yes!

I hate boys. mkay.

kthnxbye

I am such a loser. I never thought I would ever become this caught on to anything this stupid.

I think I am going to name my min pin that I will get eventually Zoe.

Any thoughts??

Hmm. I'm allergic to chlorine, we think. And my mom thinks I have sun poisoning. So, today I watched Laguna Beach Season 1 and worked out. There are some people in this world that just need to be hit with a smart stick. Yeah.. a few of you know exactly who I'm talking about.

My sister leaves for college in like four weeks? Something like that. It's going to be odd around here without her. :( She's a pretty cool kiddo. Yep.

I really can't wait to start school..yeah. I said it. SCHOOL. I think this year's going to be fun. I mean I have a "hard" schedule. I really don't see it as hard. I see it as challenging. I only have three semesters left at Farragut High, and then hopefully, it's off to MTSU where I'll start my "grown up life". I mean. Gosh. I just really can't wait. Taking trips with just my friends. Going to concerts without my parents permission. Doing anything without my parents permission. It's going to be fun, I mean...freedom. I guess? I mean seriously my parents aren't going to college with me. Obviously. It's going to be really interesting. Only 3 semesters left of high school. It's unbelievable. I can't wait to meet room mates and live in a dorm and stuff like that. It's going to be an experience. My sister's going through all of that now. I can't wait to hear stories when she comes home. Or wait, lol when she gets to Brittany's.

Yeah, I'm done.

 
ok this was before my hair cut, but I like this picture, so DEAL WITH IT. mkaythnxbye.

Yes.

 Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?

 What?

Wassup?

Suggested tags I didn't suggest: wassup cha "best girlfriend ever" girlfriend "old girlfriend" "ex girlfriend"...yeah.

I want to have a lot of people over. All of my old friends that I haven't seen in forever. Amanda K...especially. She moved and then she got a myspace and found me on it, and added me and I didn't know who she was and she left me a message and she was like yeah you didn't remember me in home ec when I told you that we played softball together as kids. I felt so bad. But, now we're talking and hopefully if she comes back over to K-town I'll see if she wants to chill with me! Ahh. She'll be back at Christmas. Hopefully, by then, we'll have cought up enough that she'll be like yeah we're gonna chill. :( I don't know!!

I want to have a lot of people over. I want my big house. I want to have a party. Yes. You're on the guest list.

I went to Jessica's lingerie party tonight. Sam and I got lost. We had a good time, though. It was like a mini road trip. haha. :(

I came home and talked to my parents. And watched the end of Man of the house. Then Brittany, Josh, Jill and I went to IHOP. I ate a pigs in a blanket that Brittany gave me. It was alright. haha. pancakes and sausage.. LOL. :-[

Anyway. That's pretty much my day. OH and I found my black polo! :D

Suggested tags I DID NOT suggest: "arrousingly good time" < HAHAHAHAHA. lmao.

Ok, SO. I went to Chattanooga today. It was fun. Brittany went!! I think we had a really good time. lol. except Jill and Brittany kept laughing about things that I didn't get, but oh well lol stuff like that happens. We ate at Glen and Gene's Deli which has to be my favorite resturaunt ever. But, they got rid of ours here. :( Anyway I told my mom that I wasn't walking at Graduation because one I don't really have any friends left in my grade and two I'll be in college. HA.

Yeah, so I watched Enough tonight. I've seen that movie so many times. It's a good one though! 

All tags are suggested tags.

So, tomorrow is Summer Insanity which is the day that we go get our year book pictures taken and pick up our schedules and sign up for clubs! I'm signing up for Interact with Jessica and APAC because Charlie told me to haha. So, yep it should be fun!

*Laguna Beach tonight! Don't forget! 10/9c to 10:30/9:30c!!! DO NOT BE LATE!

*Real World! Tomorrow! @ 10/9c! DONT MISS IT!

So, basically today I went to Jess' and we layed out around her pool and just talked and stuff, and then Kat came over after all that  and we all talked by the pool about school and guys and stuff. It was interesting! I feel a great junior year evolving :)

Anyway thats basically my night so I'll update later!

Ok, so I told y'all I'd update tonight, so I will!

Tonight I went to Jess' and Kat came too! We went over there around 8 and watched my super sweet sixteen reruns and Kat was like do you have any pictures of hot guys that go to your school? And Jess was like YEARBOOK! So we went through last year's seniors and even last year's freshmen just for her since she will be a freshman! So, yeah we were showing her who we thought was hot and she definately agreed, I knew she would! They didn't think that the dr. pepper commercial guy was cute, but I have a thing for curly hair on guys. SO I THOUGHT HE WAS CUTE! haha

Anyway, I showed them who I dated and they were like ew. I was like I know now you understand my goal for this year? and Kat asked about that and I told her and she laughed at me and so did Jess. I was like I FELT SORRY FOR THEM! And Jess was like whatever.

So, then we watched Laguna Beach!! And this seasons not as good as last season. :( Oh well!

Tomorrow is going to be CRAZY!

So, I'm awake and ready to start my day at EIGHT SIXTEEN IN THE MORNING. I didn't fall asleep until well after 4 a.m. My mom comes in my room at 7:30 can you take me to work? "mmmghhhhhhh" yeah thats what I said 'mmmghhhhhhh' it was more like a moan muffled by a pillow, and she said "good", so I got up I guess and took her to work. Surprised I didn't wreck? Me too.

Haha no, I was awake to drive her to work :) Silly boys and girls!

My mom works at the high school, right? So were driving up there and we pass the track and who's there besides Johnny boy himself? I was like "ehhhhhhhhh!!!!" and then I was like there is no way I'm stopping, even if he did tell me to, I look like certified crap. Not just crap, certified crap. I think I'm lamer in the mornings. Sorry guys! :(

Today is going to be a good day, I can feel it. Hopefully we will beat all the traffic of the upcoming seniors and all the moms of the upcoming sophomores! Hope so! :D

Jess and I are goin to summer insanity together. I hope. My mom told me I couldn't take her last night, then my dad changed her mind like always hahaha. I'm so evil, and I get my way too! :D

Yep, Goin back to bed now.

xlOvesX

p.s. all tags are suggested tags 8)

I probably wont be updating like anymore at all..b/c school's about to start, and i really hate this thing, so yeah.

But, the past four days have been the best ever..in my life. Wow :)

oX-You leave so soon. :(-xO

Yeah, school sucks. Already.

I went to Chattanooga today with Nathan. It was fun. Yep.

GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

You leave so soon :(

Hey all!

I know it's been like...FOREVER. So hi!! Did ya miss me?? Awww how sweet! Anyway, schools a drag. Graduation is in 11 months! I can't believe it! Then it's off to UTC! Yeaaaah! I hope all is well with everyone!!

James-Having fun at School yet???

hahaha.

Later Gators

Last week was a rough one and to top it all off on Friday I was in a car wreck. Nothing too bad except I can't feel most of the left side of my body, my neck hurts like a mofo and so does my head. My mother rushed me to the ER and I got two shots in my butt and It was not fun :( Oh well..hopefully once I go to KOC everything will be better.

Oh and we were hit by a bus, nonetheless.

Ok so yall all know how i got in a wreck no more than a week and a half ago, right? So, I'm gettin better, and WHAM yesterday I'm in yes, another wreck. This time I was with my beautiful best friend, Leigh..and we were at the same spot, sitting AT a RED light.... So, all my progress from the last wreck is PUSH out the window. I have therapy tomorrow. Nathan comes home Friday. Hell Yes! We definately aren't watching the ut game...hahahaha. :)

you make me so complete ♥

♥...completely sore....♥

Should your parents choose your friends?

So, my birthday was saturday, yay. Happy Birthday to me. And guess who was sick? Yep, you guessed it, me. I went to the doctor today and they checked me for strep throat and the flu and I have neither. My doctor thinks that I have some sorta virus. And who gets to start time for times if she misses another day of school? This chick-a-dee right hurr.

have a nice one.

Nathan, I'm so in love with you

xoxoxoxoxoxxx

School is pretty good...still don't have a car...

I applied to college today. Yay!

Tomorrow is 4/22/06. It has been exactly one year since my best friend Holly Clancy died. I feel really alone right now. Especially with the whole thing with Nathan. Holly would have known what to do. Exactly what to do. Those last few months before she died...I wasn't her friend at all. I turned my back on her...when she needed me most. Now that she's gone I relive that time over and over. What a jerk she must have seen me as..

Then theres this whole thing where my boyfriend goes on a date with a completely gorgeous model that goes to utc with him. ...you make me sick